LIFE

I'm sitting in my little tiny closet (no lie) of an office and watching the traffic go by on Route 16 and wondering why it's so cold in this room. I've been fortunate within the last few weeks to be re-connecting with old friends from both high school & college & friends who I grew up with-it makes me long for the old days (sometimes) and how simple & easy things were. Of course, when I was in the midst of those days I remember clearly that there were times when I thought life was the toughest most difficult thing to get through. Don't get me wrong-I didn't hate my life or wish that I had an alternate identity I just used to hate when things were difficult and there was no easy way to make it smooth again.....so, I just got off the phone w/ the nurse at my sons school. She was in the process of calling all parents in 4th grade to let them know that the teacher (who's 4 years younger then me) has breast cancer and that tomorrow they're going to speak w/ the class. The teacher (who's extremely anal-retentive & she'll admit to this if you ask her) wanted to get out ahead of any rumors that might begin after tomorrows talk. I admire her courage, but I'm also worried for her. She and I have had our differences over the years but we've always been able to be professional where my children are concerned. It's been 8 years since she taught my first child & here it is 2009 and she's teaching my youngest child.

I'm curious as to what is going through her mind right now...is it the thoughts of the upcoming surgery that will happen within the next month? Is it about her own child & step-children? I'm sure that M will have many questions about this news. Things for me are once again not smooth. Now would be a good time for some of that inner strength that my mother seems to have such an abundance of somehow be transferred to me so that I can get back to that smooth place.